I’m creating this entry because of someone whom I missed, whom I think every second. The person who I lost because of my stubbornness, lack of trust and a nagger mouth. I regret all I did to him… I didn’t appreciate every effort he did to me.
I regret being so stupid and I regret for not being too understanding… despite of him being too much busy because of the difficult and nerve wrecking exams he needs to face, he still give so much time to me (knowing Koreans’ when in the midst of studying).
Now, I don’t know after pushing him away and just realized that he did have a lot of patience already towards me after all those nagged I’ve done to him since he decided to take the CSE in SK. I don’t have any idea now what he is doing. How he’s doing. What he’s going through. I could be of help to him but I didn’t. I can be his shoulder to lean but I didn’t. I didn’t do anything and didn’t do good to him that makes me freak out. Wish I can turn back time.
Wish he could read this blog entry of mine and contact me again and know that he can tell me everything. Wish he’s open enough to atleast for me to know if he is having a hard time with his exams… though i know I can’t do anything but it felt more a useless girlfriend not knowing a little about his boyfriend.
Oppa, I believe you can do it! just always be confident and believe in yourself. You know that I do always pray for you. If things will not go with what you wanted know that God had always a better plan for you. I’m here always as you know that…. Take care always oppa.
sorry for posting this… I just wanted to express what I felt. The pain just too much to bare alone and needed some outlet and got my page to take all those….